One of the places I've always been inspired to decorate are kid's room. I've always had an idea in my mind when I first knew I had a daugther, I wanted to create a special space for us.

During my pregnancy irregardless all the taboos given I requested for Ricky to paint the room pink, that was the very first step and then I added bits and pieces gradually.

Here's the list of decorative items you'll find in this room
1. DIY Banner
2. Eyelash Wall Decor
3. Tepee
4. Tiger Playmat
5. Parklon Playmat
6. Ice Cream Lamp
7. Colorful Screw Hooks
8. Paper Storage Bag
9. Ikea Book Rack



One of my favorite items that I added into her room is the Teepee, I've also touch it up with a cloud bunting. Added a tiger playmat for her to crawl and enjoy herself inside the teepee it has become a great space for her to play hide and seek knowing how cheeky kids can be, she loves going into the teepee.



The double sided parklon mat is great for kids there both sides is a different design so we get to change the designs as we like, it's comfortable, easy to clean, just use wet wipes or a clean cloth to clean it and most importantly it's waterproof and sometimes it becomes our bed because I tend to dooze off



Here's a spot for us to read at. Miya's current favorite book at the moment is Bunny Loves to Read. The paper storage bag is great for me to make things clean by putting all her toys inside.

Dear all I would like to share my experience, I hope my story will help warn mummies out there.

My daughter had cough and phlegm during the raya holidays. Since all clinics are close except for one in puchong boulevard which leave us no choice. After 4 days of visiting the clinic her condition got worse and she started having mild fever so Dr Ting at Puchong Boulevard suggested we check her in Colombia Asia Puchong because he is the visiting consultant he wants to make sure things are fine.

Seriously I don't know what made me listen to him, maybe it's the first time Miya's been sick for so long and she's having fever and I panicked! I should have gone to Hospital Putrajaya or UMMC instead but I nod my head and agreed and I regret it so much!!

Upon arriving we were sent to the radiology department for a xray scan, blood test etc. Reports came in the next morning, everything was good except she caught a Respiratory Syncytial Virus (RSV). He describe it as life threatening while made us afraid. I'm afraid google wasn't my best friend at that moment because I've read many different inputs. I followed his advice.

She was nebulise 6 times a day, two different types. On the 3rd day she seem better and I requested for her to be monitored at home  but he refuse to discharge her saying that she needs to stay in and monitor her condition but staying at the hospital is a bad experience, nurses in Colombia Asia Puchong is just plain lazy. Even after ringing the bell they would just ignore us. In the meantime we were disturbed by the admins, cleaners coming in constantly asking questions so there was no rest at all. So I had to deal with a sulking child and I had no chance to shower at all.

On the 4th day I insisted on discharging, obviously the dr was not happy, he did not agree in the morning but when he came in at night I demanded to be release immediately.

4 days 4 night of hospitalization cost us RM6000, with 2 visit from Dr T daily for less than 10mins for once in the morning and once mid night, mid night charges was also applied. Every time he came in I asked for more details, he didn't seem to be bothered to explain further he'll always give me the nod and say she needs to be monitored. Thanks for calming me down!

Upon discharge I was given a lot of medication, he asked us to go back to his clinic for nebuliser 2 times a day because phlegm is not cleared. Mother instinct tells me otherwise. She's not coughing anymore it doesn't make sense.

The holidays were over and I decided to Visit Dr Florence, showed her our report, got her to check. My daughter is fine, there's not congestion that requires nebuliser. The virus caught can be fought on her own without antibiotics upon hearing this I felt bad, I should have listen to my instinct and fought for it. My peads also told me to stop those medication because it's not suitable for babies below 2years old.

These unethical doctors are a disgrace to their title they do not deserve it! All they want is money and they are the reason why our insurance premium are going up.

I know there's nothing much I can do, I can only share and warn others hopefully no one falls for this nasty doctor trap anymore!

**update

Miya has been having nightmares for a week now. We are not sure if this is the side effect of the medication or she's still sulking but this is just the worst experience I've had. I hope all mummies there will not fall for my same mistake hurts me badly to see her go through the pain.

Miya is growing real fast now. Before I know it she's learning how to walk! Which makes it harder now that I have to fool proof my whole room.

I make sure that she doesn't reaches for anything that's out of boundaries. She has a love for controls and she knows if it's a working control and a spoiled control cause I was trying not to be a smarty pants, wanted to trick her in using the one that's not working but #plannedfailed

Here are some precautions we ought to take
1. Get rid of sharp edges
2. Extra padding for the floor
3. Make sure dangerous items are out of reach

Anyway I've been talking about her nursery for quite a while now I think it's time I focus on that project!

It's my dream to create a montessori at home.

Pink room, teepee, wall decals, toys, pillows, books, kitchen, perhaps unicorns lol cause mummy loves unicorns.

It's my favourite time of the year! Mostly because of the any paos and good food :) I need to watch my diet before I turn into a fatty boom boom pregnancy fat is still haunting me #plsleavemealone

Anyway Happy Chinese New Year :) funny how I kept this blog to myself I guess it's my way of releasing stress rant as well as keep my memories fresh. Perhaps someday I will share it to everyone.

Ever since grandma pass away things are not the same and they will never be. CNY is different without her, her lovely fried glass noodles steam chicken braised pork fried prawns steam broccoli and mushroom will not be the usual food we will be having. I've been telling myself I need to recreate these dishes but never had a chance to do so, maybe when I have time I will start this project.

Anyway since I'm married now we got to share cny for 2 family which is not easy. I miss being home because going back is always so boring, literally do nothing for a few days.

To make things worst Miya has fallen ill for the very first time #bmrocks lol! She's having minor cough and flu hence she needs to be nebulise. Thank god I found this dr in Puchong which is open during weekends and holidays. He's not a very friendly person but he gets the job done which works fine for me.



My little one who is feeling better! I think every parents biggest fear is for their kids to fall sick. Nobody wants that but it's only normal for a child to fall sick and grow her immune system.



chor5 ❤️

Chor6 at uncle's place

one thing I miss most about cny is mahjong! Man I used to play till the morning and then continue for days and now I can't even touch them :(

不知不觉已经第二个月了。我还满enjoy 当妈妈, 慢慢的也开始习惯宝贝的sleeping pattern。可惜我的假期也快完毕, 真的不舍得把宝贝送去奶妈那儿可是还是要理智,工还是要打。

今晚老公对我说了一句 "老婆,你辛苦了。" 哇! 我真的好感动他会这样想。我付出的这一切决对是值得的! 加油老公 💪 我们一定可以熬过这一关!

To keep a relationship healthy I always believe in communication. Yes I was terribly cranky yesterday but I made my point and he understood.

It is not easy being a mother, now I know why. Sleep is never enough after your child is born, she wakes up every hour, the first week of holding your child in your hand and trying to cuddle her to bed makes me feel as if I've lost my limbs, yes it's that painful. Constant nagging for not staying in bed during confinements doesn't help either.

I had a long chat with my husband, explaining during the transition period I need a lot of help because it's not the same anymore.

He made an effort to come home early last night. Cooked dinner for me which was a good thought but he's not gonna get a chance to lay a foot in my kitchen again. He tried cooking kacangma chicken, a dish from sarawak which is good for confinement but he burnt the herbs, cook the chicken in a non stick pan without using flour so in the end I took over and help save the day :P

He also threw out the garbage and boiled water without me asking this round. #thankgod

Even gave me time to sleep at night. I slept at 10pm while he took care of Miya then woke up at 1am to DL her. 3 hours of sleep is just precious. I'm terribly grateful. Later on when she woke up he made her drink from the bottle which gave me time to pump my engorged breast.

Having help at home feels so good. I am really glad that he understands that for this to work he must participate. At one point he tried changing her diapers but I stopped him because she did a massive poop perhaps next round he can try changing a pee diaper it'll be easier.

Jia you my hubs 💪

Congratulations to myself, I can't believe that I've been a SAHM for 3 weeks already. This full time job requires 100% attention with no holidays or medical leave lol but I do enjoy spending time with Miya a lot, seeing her grow each day is the greatest gift, listening to her grunting sounds as she sleeps but with the housework piling up, I'm starting to lose it. Yes many say hire a part time, maybe I should, to keep my sanity but for the time being I've decided to be the ultimate bitch to make my point clear because I'm tired of asking.

It's easy to be a dad apparently, when the baby cries, just carry the baby, wakes mum up then go back to sleep. Easy peasy! He totally forgotten about the promises he made about us bringing up Miya
together.

Just 2 days ago, I fell ill again, plugged ducts are a bitch, he told me not to throw a tantrum but it hasn't cross his mind that it is because of him that's why I have a temper but not because I like throwing tantrum and sulk. Things needs to be done, well at least that's how I feel unfortunately he thinks differently. Why is it so hard to just fill up water and throw out the rubbish?

I asked him to wash the bottles for me, nope, he doesn't know, I guess I've majored myself in rocket science because no one thought me how to wash bottles, no one thought me how to bath a infant or change diapers or how to latch the baby, it just come naturally as you become a mother but this does not apply to a father. #godwhyyousounfair?

Today I decided to make a point, to make things easier, I've finish up all the water at home leaving no single drop so when he wakes up he will have to fill it up but I was proven wrong, when I walked in the room, he sat there, using this laptop browsing facebook, he did not notice there was not a single drop of water left, now I know he's so lazy he doesn't drink when there's no water. #seriouslyfml

Seriously why is it so hard to do simple house chores? It make sense to me, when you do it without me asking, I will not have to ask because when I ask more than once or twice or find myself repeating it gets on my nerves and he doesn't appreciate my sarcasm much but anyway you asked for it!

Simply makes me wonder why do I have to ask someone to do something simple daily, like hello! are you dumb? blind? Drum rolls here's my conclusion, it's how you were brought up. Thank you ma for having to nag at me all the time when I was young, thank you for teaching me now that I know, I understand why I got on your nerves so much.

So it's true when they say start good habits from young.

What is this postpartum depression? Well according to wikipedia it's depression that occurs after childbirth.



I was fine during my pregnancy, not much mood swings or anything, I made myself happy, going out with friends, pampering myself with massages, exercise, spend time with my cat and dog, exercise a little, cooked for myself daily, basically I was a happy chap, other than one or two events that my husband upset me.

So I thought nahhh I will never get baby blues, what are the odds that things like that will happen to someone like me? I am not a cry baby nor a attention seeker plus I have always been independent. I guess I underestimate hormones changes. #dontsayyouwontgetit!

It was stressful coming home with a baby with no help. Yeah my bad I was too confident that I will have time to take care of myself. First of all, I had no clue how to be a mother. Secondly I had to feed her every hour means there's no sleep for me and I was cranky because I have not adjusted myself to her schedule.

The 1st week was still bearable I had my mak bidan over to daily for my massage and she helped bathing baby M, mom prepared lunch and dinner for me all I had to do was heat it up but my house chores was piling up and I wanted to keep my house clean so I pushed myself a lil bit too hard, did housework and breastfeed a baby without sleep. Plus Ric was out most of the time because his business was picking up. The normal me would have been understanding, knowing that he's trying his best to make a living for me and our daughter but the me with PD was uh-oh I kept crying, I hated that he was away then he came up with a brilliant idea that made me cry for 2 days.

He decided to ask his mom to stay in and help out. Which was not our agreement before I deliver because we know it will not work. The night she came I wet my pillow. No offence but I did not like her company. She was a very  traditional woman, not to mention very loud as well, I am quite used to the silence I have and freedom I have.

Before giving birth we decided I do not have to follow any confinement rules ie no showering stay in bed no fan aircond etc. I had a way of my own and I am willing to tak the risk. have my own way of bringing up my child. I did not have herbs, ginger or alcohol in my diet because I will be breastfeeding. That was my decision and I am sticking to that. What i did instead I prepared red date tea, cod and salmon for my daily intake not forgetting fruits and veggies. I know this is not acceptable to most traditional women thinking that I'll spoil my body but whatever because they told me I shouldn't eat fish because my vagina will smell like it #dontmakesensetome like hello if you're bleeding 24/7 for 2 weeks trust me that smell ain't pleasent.

Anyway her first comment was I was walking too much, I was not allowed to touch water or carry heavy stuff, fyi I was throwing out the rubbish which will be less than 500g. Okay fine. I told myself to ignore. It was hard I could hardly put a smile on my face whenever I talk to her. It was a difficult time for me especially when they are into weird practices, she did not support breast feeding, or that's how she make me feel, kept asking me to give formula at least once a day which I rejected like a zillion times, yes breastfeeding is hard, I know that's why I am doing it because it benefits the baby to the max. Why give artificial milk when I have the real thing? #canneverunderstandsomepeople then Miya had jaundice, she wanted to feed her red date water, ya allah! why!!!! This is madness to me she was just a week old. Then she said something that made me terasa, she said to my daughter that I'm torturing her because I did not feed her water after breast feeding. Urghhh can someone please educate them?

As much as I hated the company I know she meant well and I too felt bad that I put my husband in that situation. I felt sorry for him but I had to make him do something cause I have reached a point whereby I am gonna say something unpleasant soon. Yes I kept telling myself stop being so sensitive she's just helping but I do not know why I couldn't control myself.

Meanwhile I was also depressed that I had no time for Mimi, my cat. She's been with me for 7 years now our bond is special. The day Miya came she stopped eating she didn't like the baby I guess. Then she'll be sitting at a corner looking at me. Just felt so bad I had no time for her for nearly 2 weeks. Had to hide her in the other room when visitors came and she didn't like company. Seeing her sad just made me cry everytime I see her.

Anyway it took me some courage. I had to tell Ric and my mum I had baby blues because I wanted it to go away. I hated myself for being sad hated how I cry for no reason it was just crazy. Thanks to Ric and my mum I walked out of it. Took awhile but I felt better.

In the end support is very important after pregnancy. You have no idea what the hormones will turn you into and I'm glad I came out of it after a week.

Our first mother and daughter selfie.
It's Miya's first week

Fun part of the week, she made flying poop lol I had a great laugh about this.
Got to brush up my skills, I'm still not clear how shit is suppose to look like.

The poop flew from the changing table to my bed sheets. Had to change my sheets after that 😱😱